Facebook has put me back in touch with so many of you from my past.
We’ve all moved on with our lives, but I can’t help but still view you as you were when we knew each other. I wonder if we still carry the torch for each other, if we remember, or if our perceptions have changed. I’ve learned that we’ve all matured, dealing with what Life has thrown in our laps, what we’ve chosen. I don’t know you anymore but I would like to. Where are you? Who are you? I cherish you – as pieces to the puzzle of my past, as parts of knowing Life better, as irreplaceable gems in memory, as formative moments, as what has made our history.
I moved to RI to begin the 4th grade. There was a boy that I met on that first day of class with Mrs. Thayer (we played with Sarah Wrap on the forced-air heater) for whom I held a crush for all of my Portsmouth years, although he never knew. There are girlfriends who were my nearest (we shared post/mid-cross country run breaks at her house for Oprah), and most importantly my dearest (sobbing in bathrooms over broken hearts and sneaking off for forbidden nights in Newport). There was a boyfriend, who was so much more, in college that I’ll never-ever forget.
I went to college in VA to escape “small town” – but now I can’t believe I thought anything other than how wonderful it is. All I want to do is be back in the Aquidneck Island/Narragansett/Sakonnett/Portsmouth/Newport mentality. I learned how to be an adult in college. Hard lesssons. But learned well – lessons that solidified who I am and who I will be. For this I cherish those who participated, saved me and cared for me.
You grow older, life becomes more complicated. History backs up on you. I was so naive not understand that with age comes wisdom. I thought that older people were just stodgy. We live with triumphs and regrets and they make us the characters we are today.
Don’t live with regret. Be open and honest and welcome Life as it serves itself to you. Move forward. We have so much to learn. And I love you still – in every way. I haven’t forgotten anything.